its 11:53 pm, 31 dec 2009
the last 7 minutes of the year.
what a thought.
2009 has been one of the fastest years ever. maybe its because of O's, and SYF(which now seems like eons ago), and the fact that we were to graduate from our secondary sch life forever.
looking back, i have a slight twinge of regret, like i didn't treasure the moments enough, and what if my sec sch friends turned out to be my friends for life and i lost the opportunity to be even closer such that when we met 15 years down the road we could say more than just the awkward " Hi, how are you?"
"I'm fine, thanks. You?"
which is always said to ease the tension and not for true meaning.
11:57 pm
3 more mins. those with fast clocks are probably writing out their sms of well wishes, hoping that the next year would be better. i think every year is the same. some have more drama, ups and downs, its true. but when you look back, it does not mean anything. every year blends in with those from the past, and those moments which you wanted to dig a hole and bury yourself seem insignificant and small, and you laugh for thinking that was the end of your life.
12:00 am, 2010its midnight. usually an ordinary midnight, but supposedly this midnight is worth celebrating, since its the beginning of a new year. i always found countdowns ridiculous. why should this midnight be unlike any other? its 2010 now. so? i never want years to end. like everyday is slipping through your fingers, and there's nothing you can do to hold on to them. you can only watch them pass, and decide to be positive, and countdown to the next year, all the while knowing the days will slip past, just as before. people never really change.
12:03 am
well. i have no idea why my post became all philosophical and weird. it just became that way.
i don't make new year resolutions. whatever for? i know i could never keep to them.
you would never break what you never make.
just like if you had no hopes, you would never be disappointed.
12:05 am
bye 2009. it has left for a full 5mins. if i didn't have the clock, i would never have known. cos i don't feel different, at all. more than 10mins ago i was sitting here, typing. and now i'm sitting here, typing.
i remember last year's 31dec. or should i say, 2008's.
my family had all gone to bed, except my sis, who was out. i switched on the tv, watched the last 5mins, watched the countdown, and switched it off, and went back doing whatever i was doing.
yes yes, that's me, the abnormally calm and unhigh at supposedly necessary high moments.
now you know.
12:09 am
all that i experienced in the past one year, it feels like a dream. the kind that you wake up halfway and want to go back to it, but you never can.
i suppose i would miss 2009. is it possible to miss a year?
my prom is tmr, strictly speaking. i honest to goodness hope it's fun.
give or take 10days, i'll receive my results. another 10+ days, i'll know where i'll be for the next few years. my new life path. the time where all my friends really do get scattered. and if i go -, i'll reunite with some. idk. we shall see.
perhaps i don't like this new year because i don't know where i'll be going. perhaps in 2010's 31dec, i'll like 2011.
2011. looks so weird and alienish.
12:13 am
i'm done. i don't think i'll ever be the countdown type, unless its at TC.
have a wonderful year, everyone.
