Today, was SUCH a fantastic day. Like, really truly.
I:
/waited at the optometrist for 2 over hours to get contacts.
/because my eyes are THAT small, i can't wear soft lenses as easily as any normal person
/therefore i need to wear gas permeable lenses, aka hard lenses.
/which means i have to keep it in good condition for 2 years,
/when someone of my character really should be wearing dailies.
/HARD LENSES HURT LIKE @#$%$
/and will hurt for 2-3 months.
/apparantly they are better for you, cos of oxygen and all that.
/but when the only thing you want to do is pull them out immediately after putting them in, you don't care about the health benefits.
/i couldn't open my eyes properly, and had to sit for 40mins to get them 'adjusted'.
i sound like a spoilt brat, yes?
i can't help it. im sorry.
oh yes, on top of my great morning, i also,
/stood my friend up for 1hr.
/she was annoyed, mad, irritated. i totally understand.
/if she doesn't ever want to go out with me, its my fault.
/if it was me, i woudn't even have waited. why wait for someone as irresponsible as me?
SEE? WHAT A GREAT DAY.
i just don't get how come everytime i plan something, and hype myself up for believing it will be an awesome day, i screw it up.
AND I NEVER MEAN FOR IT TO HAPPEN.
i never planned for the tune-in games to overtime, and that i would be late to meet C.
i never planned for the contacts fitting to take forever, and that i would be late to meet M.
i never planned to be late in meeting my friends, and to do so twice in a week.
i never planned to appear so irresponsible and untrustworthy.
and i never planned for something which i want to never happen again, happen again.
I'M SORRY. REALLY, TRULY, CROSS MY HEART.
yes, you're right, next time i should tell the person beforehand.
its not that i didn't want to. i'm just that kind of person that hopes, believes for the best, that maybe, after this part, i can go, or after this, or after this.
and the clock just ticks away.
like when i have to reach cityhall at 1130, and the time's 1047, i think, ok, enough time to ..., it only takes 22mins to reach. and by the time i check, it's alr 1113, and i'm late.
maybe it wasn't intentional, but it is my fault. dui bu qi. gomenasai.
forgiveness? a simple word, but it needs so much.
all the things i've ever done, all the things i'd yet to do.
what kind of person am i?
someone who will break promises, is that it?
