well. i'm back from my sleepover.
it was fun, a quiet sort of fun i guess.
/sitting in the balcony, trying to play with the 13-in-1 games thing, laughing.
/and the long hours of talks, of jc life, of subjects, of everything that we could think of.
/playing my very first game of pool, i'm glad its with these people, having an enjoyable 2hrs in exchange for $4.80, i don't mind.
/learning german bridge, and poker. card games are lots of fun, really.
/discovering our superior isketch skills, and being downright mean to the other players.
/attempting to make sense of RISK, and playing our own way, ended up in me surrendering for the sake of my people, haha.
/lots and lots of junk food, delicious aglio olio and fried rice.
/and emily.

never had a sleepover like this. it's interesting, and yeah it was fun, although next time, lets have the normal kind, not the babysitter kind, yes?
the everybody, noisy, chalet, sleeping at 5am kind would be nice.

since i'm typing this on sunday, my anger has long ceased.
but really, on friday night, i was planning just exactly how i would compose this post to you.
you, who would apologize without knowing the reason, who doesn't see how that makes your apology fake, who believes that 'im sorry' can change everything.
seriously, a sleepover is not for you to use the com, to type away in your various msn conversations with your MANY MANY friends. you might as well just go home then.
you knew that i was alone, with nothing to do, and when i asked you to stop, you agreed, only to turn back the moment it rang again.
what, then, is the point of saying sorry?
it only makes things worse, doesn't it?
but whatever. obviously i can't do anything about it, for you are you, and will always be you.
no matter what others say, you don't change.
even if you knew i was mad, you still wouldn't do anything about it.

well. i'm not going to bear a grudge. i just needed to let it all out. and now i have.
there's a whole paragraph that i've already deleted.

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its only when i went back do i realise i missed the Cedar building so much.
i miss taking 100, walking the long road in to school, having to avoid the flooded area when it rains, remembering the 'fear' when i was late for band and the side gate was not open and to your horror you see them assembling and you are late and in plain sight.

the new building, its rather nice, some things have changed, not all for the better.
the foyer is great. i can't remember how the old one looks like anymore.
having the library on the 1st floor, pretty smart, but it just seems odd, like libraries are meant to be above.
i like how the layout almost stayed the same, and realise that i do miss the corridors, the classroom block and everything.
band room is reddish, thats all i can say. and the new choir room is nice.
flagpole is now on the 1st floor, not cool anymore.
and i miss the clock tower so very much.

i didn't see everything. like the hall, or the toilets. how i wish to be back in Cedar again, instead of having to worry for my future.
i'm still strongly considering poly.

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There she was.
Sitting alone a tthe beach, hugging her knees to her chest. So engrossed in her thoughts that she did not notice the tiny leaf nestled in her hair.
He smiled. She was exactly like how he remembered.
He walked over to her, quietly, and bent down, till they were at eye level with each other.
"I am here now."
She looked up, and smiled, " Yes, you are."
As her green eyes stared at his brown ones, at that moment, they knew, it was just the beginning.

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tmr is SLEEPOVER DAY!
i'm really rather excited.
because well, this group of people can always make me laugh, make me feel at ease, and make me really glad that i have known them:)
and this is possibly the best thing that have happened to me since the hols started.
cos of everything that has happened recently, i DO need a break.

:)

nonsense nothing post as usual.

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Today, was SUCH a fantastic day. Like, really truly.
I:
/waited at the optometrist for 2 over hours to get contacts.
/because my eyes are THAT small, i can't wear soft lenses as easily as any normal person
/therefore i need to wear gas permeable lenses, aka hard lenses.
/which means i have to keep it in good condition for 2 years,
/when someone of my character really should be wearing dailies.
/HARD LENSES HURT LIKE @#$%$
/and will hurt for 2-3 months.
/apparantly they are better for you, cos of oxygen and all that.
/but when the only thing you want to do is pull them out immediately after putting them in, you don't care about the health benefits.
/i couldn't open my eyes properly, and had to sit for 40mins to get them 'adjusted'.

i sound like a spoilt brat, yes?
i can't help it. im sorry.

oh yes, on top of my great morning, i also,
/stood my friend up for 1hr.
/she was annoyed, mad, irritated. i totally understand.
/if she doesn't ever want to go out with me, its my fault.
/if it was me, i woudn't even have waited. why wait for someone as irresponsible as me?

SEE? WHAT A GREAT DAY.

i just don't get how come everytime i plan something, and hype myself up for believing it will be an awesome day, i screw it up.
AND I NEVER MEAN FOR IT TO HAPPEN.
i never planned for the tune-in games to overtime, and that i would be late to meet C.
i never planned for the contacts fitting to take forever, and that i would be late to meet M.
i never planned to be late in meeting my friends, and to do so twice in a week.
i never planned to appear so irresponsible and untrustworthy.
and i never planned for something which i want to never happen again, happen again.

I'M SORRY. REALLY, TRULY, CROSS MY HEART.


yes, you're right, next time i should tell the person beforehand.
its not that i didn't want to. i'm just that kind of person that hopes, believes for the best, that maybe, after this part, i can go, or after this, or after this.
and the clock just ticks away.
like when i have to reach cityhall at 1130, and the time's 1047, i think, ok, enough time to ..., it only takes 22mins to reach. and by the time i check, it's alr 1113, and i'm late.
maybe it wasn't intentional, but it is my fault. dui bu qi. gomenasai.




forgiveness? a simple word, but it needs so much.
all the things i've ever done, all the things i'd yet to do.
what kind of person am i?
someone who will break promises, is that it?

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAROLINE!
about time you turn 16! haha it seems so weird now, cos throughout the year i've been wishing ppl that. and so many things have happened between one person's bday to the next.
this year, it's really ending now.
next year's gonna be great. well. before results day ruins everything, that is.

but ANYWAY,
someone's having fun at her chalet right now so she can't see this.
guess what?
you've the honour of being the first girl i wish happy bday to since..
since i've given this blog resuscitation.
HAHA.
i'm full of crap.
or, as M would say, full of bull -.-'''

can't wait for tuesday!
how long do you think i can keep up this frequent blog post phenomeneon?
hmm.. till the end of this month, at least?
yup that shall be my target. haha.

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just sent Charlene off at the airport! She's going Korea. so unfair. hmmph. haha
then she's not very high about it.
Well.. if we two were going... then we would be super high:)
oh yeah, i'm supposed to finish up my red camp post.
but im so lazzyy..
kk, tmr!


i wonder if anyone rmb our 2nd mass convo? doubt it.
ah wells. im late.
there's so many things i want to do, some things i dont even dare to say out loud.
for fear that maybe, someone will say, " You can't. "
cos i wouldn't be able to accept it.
silence... is safer.

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When I say red camp you say 6.
Red Camp? 6!
Red Camp? 6!
When I say what camp you say red camp.
What camp? RED CAMP!
What camp? RED CAMP!
What camp? RED CAMP 6!


i went Ngee Ann Poly on Tues to Thurs. It was pretty awesome.
I loved Red Camp, loved my leaders, and loved my tribe, APACHE!
They made me super love red again:)
as you can see, i'm in a happy mood. so the entire post will be filled with smiley faces!
:)

There are five tribes, Apaches(red), Ninjas(blue), Centurions (yellow), Vikings (green) and Spartans (white). So we all wore our tribe colours and i became so used to looking at red that it was weird seeing a bunch of blue or green...
Hmm.. the SLs were so much fun. They were high, and cheered, and i think everyone was so willing to be high too. cos we all wanted to sign up for this course i guess, so.. everyone was high!

Apaches oi! Whooooo
Apaches oi! Whoo hoo
Apaches oi!
Red hot Apaches, making you go whoo hoo,
that's the way we all come true like whoo hoo, whoo hoo!
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Lemme give you a brief rundown of what we did over 3 days:

DAY ONE.
Assemble, performance, some instructions, then off we go!

1. School of Engineering.. built a rollercoaster thing, way fragile and unstable and ugly, but in the end.. we won! so 2 movie tix each to the ppl in our grp. good start to the morning.

And we go Boom Dynamite,
And we go Boom Dynamite,
And we go o-o-o-o Boom Dynamite
And we go Boom Dynamite, } soft
And we go Boom Dynamite, }
And we go chex chex ddddddddd BOOM DYNAMITE!
And you go ohmygod,
And you go ohmygod,
And you go o-o-o-o ohmygod,
And we go please try again,
And we go please try again,
And we go Error, access denied.
chex chex BOOOOMMMM!

2. Lunch. KFC. abit cold, but.. filling. haha. ( still rmb the plotting to get into a certain subtribe, but we still failed anw:/ until the last day! haha. )

3. Adventure Park. thank goodness we didn't all have to do the flying fox but scarier thingy. oh, and the chalet thing costs $100/night. thats like, night robbery. haha.
Played the inverse game and parachute game. which was.. abit scary, in a way.

For honour, for glory, for Apache!
All apaches in the stands, come on let me see your hands
ooh-ah-a-ah. ooh-ah-a-ah.
All apaches in the stands, who's so great, who's so great
ooh-ah-a-ah. ooh-ah-a-ah.
All apaches in the stands, who's the greatest in the land
ooh-ah-a-ah. ooh-ah-a-ah. ooh-ah-a-ah. OOM!

4. Back to main area, ended 6plus, ate and went home! dark stormy night, so spent a bomb cabbing with C. see lah, all your fault. HAHA. do you get the rhyme??



DAY TWO.
same stuff in the morn, just that J was looking zombier and zombier. ahaha.

5. School of Humanities, fun fun fun. we saw a cute puppet show, made a (eventually end up squashed) clay panda, and watched a magic show.
School of Film and Media Studies. won a game cd! haha we winning streak. saw the cool facilities, and learnt the GG cheer!

1 little 2 little 3 little Apaches
4 little 5 little 6 little Apaches
7 little 8 little 9 little Apaches
Wait a minute, we're not little!
We're almighty!
Who dares to mess with us will be chao da.
Who dares to mess with us will be barbeque.
Who dares to mess with us will be deep fried.
SA SASA SASA SA SASA SASA SA SASA SASA.
one more time!
No one will mess with us we will own you.
No one will mess with us we will eat you.
No one will mess with us you will GG
G GG GG G GG GG G GG GG.
good game!
G GG GG G GG GG G GG GG go home la!
G GG GG G GG GG G GG GG still here ah!
G GG GG G GG GG G GG GG no chance!
G GG GG G GG GG G GG GG no shame!
CHEY!!!!!

6. Lunch. Breeks!

7. School of Life Sciences, Nitrogen baked marshmallows can be eaten. Really.
School of Health Sciences. it's gross delivering a baby, mr tan the 'injured' mannequin is never dying.
Haha can see my interest level in these 2 schools.. pretty low. heh.

I love Apaches, I love the people here, I love the SLs, I love the campers too,
I love Apaches, right here in Red Camp 6.

8. some celebs came.. ok it was pretty fun, but i cant rmb anymore.

9. Dinner. We had to find a guy partner. it was rather funny, and in the very end a frenzy for nothing. ok C had some .. rewards but that's it.

10. MASS DANCE! to the tune of Now or Never and All for One. learnt about half of it the we went home. took C's car home, and we just continued to stress over the JC/Poly dilemma.
Honestly, i have no idea. I went home with a ton of ? and the Ooh-la-la cheer in my head.

Apaches, how are you feeling?
I say.. Ooh-la-la, Apache-la-la.
I say.. Ooh-la-la, Apache-la-la.
I say O-e-o-e-o, whoooooo
o-e-o-e-o, APACHE!!



DAY THREE.
11. It's so tiring to crawl out of bed. cos i ended up sleeping pretty late. but ohwells! last day!!!
Charlene came! and i spent the morning ride teaching her the cheers. like the heart one:)

1,2,3,4 listen to my heart beat. boom-boomboom-boomboom.
5,6,7,8 listen to my butt shake. tang-tangtang-tangtang.
1,2,3,4 listen to my hands clap. clap-clapclap-clapclap.
5,6,7,8 listen to APACHE! boom-boomboom-boomboom.tang-tangtang-tangtang.clap. clap-clapclap-clapclap. APACHE!!

12. School of Business. nothing much. played this game which we lost. STI = Straits Times Index.
School of Infocomm Tech. increased my interest in the animation course. Just afraid i have no flair for it.

13. Lunch, stranded at the IT block, the 1st negative thing about NP is it floods! saw students everywhere walking around holding their shoes in their hands, and it seemed so routine to them.
We went into the 'haunted' lecture theatre, and learnt new cheers! (haha what else?)

14. Back to the conf centre for mass dance and camp finale, but we were sooo high! just cheering and screaming all the way. There's this home cheer, but i cant rmb now:/
Danced mass dance with char,
Each tribe had a characteristic, and Apaches were considered wildest:) Somehow i like that!
Broke 2 Sg book of records:
1) Dance hokey pokey for 5 mins,
2) Most no of people putting a lollipop in your mouth at the same time for 3mins.
Yeah yeah sounds stupid, but when you're in the high mood anything goes!
Had the cheer-off comp to decide best tribe
andd... WE WON! despite being the smallest, WE WON!! We screamed like mad i tell you.
We had to cheer 5 cheers continuously, and we did..
oohlala, honour and glory, boom dynamite, 1,2,3,4, GG.
we were so tired after that. our cheers are too long la!
but i liked Ninja's cheers too.
And we had this alliance thing, so we became Ninche
While the other 3 were CenVikTans
the alliance cheers were pretty screwed, but we were less screwed. haha.
Ninche oi!
Ninja-jajaja, Apache-checheche
NinjaApache become Ninche.
Ninche oi!
We are.... Number 1...
No one can beat us..... ha!
Ninche oi!
Our passion, ha!
is like fire, ha!
Burn the whole desert.... ha!
They see us, ha! Also follow us, ha!
All so scared of the passion of fire.....

Spore Idol Top 4 came, i like all of them!
After that C and J left, we mass danced again, gone wild.
Dinner was ok. Assembled and did all the cheers again :D
Finally went back in for the Zouk thing, which i DID NOT enjoy.
left at 10, took train all the way back with Char.

It was a great 3 days, wonderful experience, i enjoyed myself thoroughly.
Maybe i still don't know where to go, but. Ngee Ann is a great option.
I knew that before i went for the camp, and now, i have a greater understanding.
Poly ppl, isn't all that different from JC ppl. Everyone's about the same age, have our high moments, have the mugging side, have the ability to have a great time.
So no matter where i go, i think, i can still fit in.

Ok! finally completed. I'm so tired. haha.
BYE~

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