im not affected at all by the results.
seriously, i love them being leaders. They are my friends, why should i be upset?
Why, really? Haven't i got over the chance to be one?
i really have.
I doubt it's that.
Sometimes,
i wish my feelings could talk back to me.
Let me know why i'm feeling the way i'm feeling now.
Anyway, i am really feeling happy right now.
i really think the entire world is fine and dandy.
i'm a liar.
cos i know band as i know it, has changed.
it will never be like my first 3 batches of leaders. ever.
i can't bring myself to say 'leader"
i dont know why.
Maybe it's cos i can't accept people my level being band leaders, Maybe it's cos sya is head.
Maybe it's cos she can never be a true DM in my eyes.
Maybe it's cos i don't want the sec4s to step down yet.
Maybe it's cos that's just the way i am.Selfish.
Unaccepting.
Mean.
you know what?
Maybes don't solve the problem. I should just stop now and continue my simple band member life.
see? i have zero bitterness at all.
