every single, stupid time you know just how to make me irritated.
how to make others feel pity for you, to make people believe i'm a jerk.
oh wait, jerk is meant for guys. fine. that im a big fat bully. someone who will purposely lower your self-esteem. and make you upset just for the sake of enjoyment.
why can't you just be more normal for once? to see that, it was just a joke.
something you could have just laughed off and say, "no, im not insignificant, im just as important as you are". and that would have been that. end of issue. fullstop.
but NOO. you had to make a big deal out of it. be offended. let others find out. let our friends say oh you're so poor thing, yes sherilyn is so mean to say that!
that's what you want, is it? well you've succeeded then. great.
haven't you ever looked at it from another angle? don't you know by now that i don't mean that? its not the first day you know me. can't you understand that that's the way i am. frank. cutting.
you should have seen by now, shouldn't you. the very fact that you would get upset, angry etc. shows you don't know me well at all. that you would think i actually meant that. you think that i am not upset over your little trust in me? that's what hurts me the most. when i thought you knew me best. and i'm actually so very wrong.
stop being so petty.
you are the one, who used to say things like 'i doubt so-and-so would remember me.' then what do i do? do i say, yeah, of course she wont remember you existed.
or did i try to assure you that she definitely knows who you are, and that you ain't forgotten?
YOU are the one who always implies that you feel insignificant. yet this time, when i actually AGREE with you, i get silent treatment. seriously, i'm sick and tired of trying to tell you you are known by others. obviously you don't really believe what i say when i'm boosting your self-esteem.
yet this time, this once, when i said the opposite, you believe me, don't you?
how fitting. to believe the negative, and not the positive.
i can't help it that you are going to get offended over such minor issues. it's really not my problem since this isn't the first time you are so petty anyway. i won't say sorry this time. i don't want to break down first. it's so very tiring to be in a friendship where i have to be nice all the time. count the number of times i have gotten offended or upset over negative remarks about me. and count vice versa. at least spot the difference.
give and take. live and let live. don't you understand at all?
it's not that i don't want to be friends.
i just dont want to pretend anymore.
