okay. as i promised. the details. shall try to be as precise, but short as possible
` morning saw some seniors all in full uniform
` they sang national anthem and all that standing up at empty corridor (:
` left class when 2p people were outside.
` short briefing by cihui, went into bandroom
` miss wan offered to let us eat then come back around 0920
` me & ng did some friendshipband stuff... joined the rest at canteen
` sat outside mcdonalds table and got asked by teachers what we were doing
` learned something shocking [love to elaborate but
aint allowed]
` finally got to work. all the while WE were planning how to give them the friendshipband..
` WE were horribly stuck with the bongo, heaviest percussion instument [as compared to all those woodblock, um cymbals and stuff] while emily ended up with the table that was sothelight
` in the bus, everyone was in this happy mood, chattering and all.
` reached! managed to avoid the bongo, took cymbals and was trying to gather all seniors together
`on the way to tuning room, decided to split half with her, so i gave sec3s the bands
`
they loved it :D `then cihui said if we could run to the other side in time, we could watch the performance.
`there's was some problem with the tuba, and so WE volunteered to bring it over, so that we wouldnt already be on that side and not have to rush
` begged lavaneiya and azel to let us watch
` only two that managed to hear them.
` secretly got ready to record. even though we were next to the usher
` they played wonderfully. much much better than 2-3 weeks ago. the expressions, the music, the linking.. except for being in tune and stuff like that. i wouldnot know.
` but all the tricky bits went really well. like bar10, bar63...and tanya's solo was amazing!(:
` one of the judges stood up and gave us a standing ovation
` ms sia
SMILED. that's really important to us because we usually get a
i am disappointed and angry look
` needless to say, when they came out, everyone was buzzing.
` we were all confident, they did so well.
` we all felt the chances of a gold was increased, boosted.
` results time. at first only 20 from each sch were allowed, so only sec4s
` learnt that the judging was taking away the lowest and highest score of the 7 judges, then averaging the remaining five's marks
` then they allowed all performers to enter..
` we all gathered under the speaker. the emcee started talking. and thanking all the people that we really did not want to know about. and Also thanking the judges, with all their long titles..
` we were all frenzied. when they said band no 79... super tense.
` i was quite sure my hand was going to drop off at band85. or my heart would just stop, or worse, pop out. adore my imagination sometimes
` tadaa.
band no 86, cedar girls secondary school, ..
silver` no claps, definitely no cheers. moved on to 87. whereas for other schools, had to wait for them to stop cheering before they continued. us, we were too numb to react
` silver and us meet again. something we have desperately tried to avoid. it reared its fat ugly head and clung onto us.
for another two years.
` i have no idea how people who dropped from gold to silver felt. our case was different. to others it might seem that we couldnt improve, stayed stagnant. we all expect the judging to be the same. then its a real gauge, isnt it?
` our band was the last to leave the hall. they cried. we cried. we hugged, we were numb. it was a poke-the-balloon-with-a-needle situation. our balloon was so deflated.
` some, reacted quickly and cried. big fat sad sobs
` others like me, were just standing/sitting there.. playing mind games with the word silver. over and over again. until the full extent of the word kicked in and we started to tear.
` i cried not just for the band. also for the sec4s, who put their heart and soul into this. they must have felt they failed. i saw even the strongest shed a tear or two, red-eyed. it meant so much to every single one of them.
` im sure some schools would have loved our silver. but to us it was just another award. in a sense, we left with the school's hopes, and returned downcast and forlorn
i know about failure being a stepping stone for success, but how many more stepping stones do we need to reach the other side?` the bus ride home was silent. we moved in despair, robotic actions that we didnt register
` reached school around 1350. the afterschool crowd. great.
` i saw amirah, saw 2p's eunices. i hated letting people know we got a silver again and watching them walk away with the 'guessed it all along' type of look.
` went to class. didnt say much. walked with caroline. felt abit better. i just needed to talk i guess. didnt want to go back bandroom
` the atmosphere was so depressing
` had cheer-up! talks by leaders, teachers and siying :P she still cant do speeches.. as lame as ever. which was good. it cracked some smiles.
` still went for section outing with cathlin, aqila, shangyu, tanya, ng & emily. and the bassoonists vanessa and sweejin
` two of them didnt tap in, so abit delayed.
` went ps kfc, later had so much fun. felt instantly
better(:` saw tuba section, perc, and then some others, including gillian. let them read our survey.
` see, we were approached by this lady to fill out a survey regarding the new kfc product.
` did two proper ones [although tanya's had some 'attitude' words and pretended she was a jap]
` but for the last one, we wrote nonsense. said things like
date:syf race: band members how to improve the product: give us a GOLD etc.
` almost got into trouble. the woman wasnt happy. she asked us our school and erm.. we said teck whye. haha, abit bad but it wasnt like they had a good rep.
` afterwards had abit of un-decisionmaking, then me, ng and tanya went back
` physically, extremely exhausted. not my brain though. still working like clockwork for the whole syf thing.
` which i didnt wish to think about and couldnt stop thinking of at the same time.
ok i've done it. shall make sure my next posts wont be so 'emo' ... glad you've read till this far.
thanks for caring. oh, and have a nice day.
Labels: syf
