its the start of the march hols break and i feel funnny:
there's a weird amount of hw- hard but not alot;
i have to do PE hw- stupidest thing i heard of;
i have band for 4 times;
im going out on wed, fri & sun;
that = no time for revision;
im bogged down because i have to study for 5 subjects;
which will be testing over a span of only 3 days;
another word is: common test time;
i wasted today just mindlessly using the pc while telling myself im actually doing the pe hw;
im going out tmr so im hopelessly behind schedule;
i could have gone to dhaky's party if i begged hard enough but i didnt;
i try to convince myself that its cause my parents dont allow but secretly i know that isnt true;
i dont want to admit that its cause of my own personal problems;
AND my grades are going down;
im waiting for ms sia to discover that i cant play for syf;
but she's taking a while;
and in the meantime i still have to go for all the hectic practices;
so im sorta wishing i could participate after all;
i hate getting my hopes up when in the deepest bottom of my heart, i know there's just no hope at all;
ok now you get the idea erh? sigh. maybe i should take some drastic measures.
like get a punk haircut or something :D
then i would know why people actually look at me that way. instead of guessing.
`turn your eyes away.
