just some random things..

1. delight;
when ms sia was testing, emily said some rubbish about jumping from A to B note. ms sia grew even more angry. after fall out, we told youting and then she said that ms sia did mention that to huimin and that they(our seniors) guessed it was most likely emily. haha

2. ecstasy;
when daniel was tutoring sec1s, emily felt like calling him MRdaniel. he didnt like that, so he called her MISSemily. then she was telling 4 out of 6 sec1s about stuff you shouldnt say/do to ur seniors. i said: emily, stop telling them things which only you would have thought of saying/doing to our seniors. daniel was like, sherilyn.. you dont need to tell us what everyone knows. i glanced at ng and we burst out laughing.

3. depression;
watching syahirah leaving the classroom today and knowing that she is going for a special syf mentorship. and that im not good enough. seriously, at that time during geog lesson, my feelings were scraping rock bottom. i felt so low, thinking that im so lousy at playing, so lousy at everything. i suck. honestly, its not like i want to blow my lungs out for 4 solid hours, its just that there's always this niggling thought in my brain: you're so lousy. now you're out. you suck. and i, havent been the happiest gal these days. i know i have only myself to blame, and that i cant do anything about it, but there's this big gap between your brain knowing and your heart knowing.

4. appreciation;
-celeste: we were at paya lebar mrt and there was this guy giving out flyers. she took one and i asked her why. i mean, whats the point taking something when you don't really want it. her theory was that we should help the guy to be able to finish the job. he cant finish until he gives out all the flyers, so do him a favour. she does this for all the flyer-givers. i never thought about this before. wow.

-yiying: we were the last two to leave. and simin's shirt & tie was on the table. so she took it, and we walked to ms2. we didnt know how to give her until we saw some choir people. then yy remembered corryne left her bottle on HER table and that corryne was at the foyer. so she passed her bag, uni and shoes to me to carry down while she ran back to class to give corryne her bottle. i was desperately struggling down the steps. this sec3 even came up to me to offer me help!
i didnt think about doing things like this. its like sometimes you're so focused with what we want to achieve, that we forget all the small things along the way.
kindness, humility, friendships. these are the things that touch the human heart right?
one kind act leads to another.
its so cliche, but cliches are just so true.

i so need to reflect on my self.

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happy birthday. im glad you appreciate all the presents.
ok, two 'special things' happened today.
one, the morning reflections, current affairs, talked about people being overly emo. wierd coincidence right?
two, ms sia walked out and mr ong kept them until 4:15? pm. ergh.
so... interesting date huh?
and she said that someone died on her birthday last year. haha
thanks for liking the chocolates. actually they werent hard to make.
the final product took maybe about 1.5 hours only.
however, there was so much trial-and-error to be done.. so..
yours was the 3rd batch! be honoured that we spent so much time on them
and you better eat your T-A-N-Y-A !!!

`the best sherilyns of the sherilyn-y world of sherilyns (from the horse's mouth)

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im livid. how could the two of them have done something like this?
and i thought the whole idea of this thing was a friendly competition,
for fun, for a good time,
not just winning.
well, guess i thought wrong.
let me start from the beginning.
after skipping the unimportant parts, the storyline:
our lovely sportsREP asked who would be going for the __x__ event (trust me, i do not wish to talk about them or the subject matter. or even mention it)
steph and i raised my hand.
then our lovely blackshoe34 said i wasnt in. so i went to check the notice board, and true enough, my name wasnt ticked. neither was steph's.
what happened: was so many people wanted to sign up for that event. so, the two lovelies decided that they will kick the less sports-talented people out to make way for the sports-inclined. tada. they decided to kick the two of us out. just the two of us.
34 even said things like, it was the benefit of the class, and all other sorts of intelligent crap she can think of. at that point of time, nothing could have made me less angry. or sad.
i went over to sR seat. she was too embarrassed to talk to me or explain. luckily for her, mrs jai came in then.
i can honestly confess that i wasnt listening in english. in dazed mood and seething in pe. by the time math rolled around, i could barely control myself.
i know steph didnt. she..just pushed her table to the ground and said that that was the person she was.
i was ashamed. i never ever believed in letting more than the necessary people know about any personal details of mine. and this whole thing, they think we are blowing it up. we werent. get that clear in your brain or just stop reading right now.
steph:
- was more mad that we were taken out because we werent good in sports.
damia; get over this thing. just know you ARE good enough
steph; i KNOW im good enough, and its not right that just because they think otherwise, they kick me out.
- angry that i didnt want to talk about, couldnt understand why i was not feeling indignant
i:
- was just overall upset that they forgot the whole point of having the whole class in a house, and even sports day itself, was unity. and fun. not just winning medals. all of us would wish to enjoy our sports day!
- basically i couldnot believe their nerve and insensitivity.

im getting more agitated. im sure you get the idea what happened. not going to talk about it

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im in love. with the phantom of the opera musical. its really really really nice!
the show opened yesterday and i just watched it at 2pm :))
i think the singing, atmosphere, effects are terrific. but.. just a little bit worse then the real london one that i watched.
now THAT was incredible. haha.
still remember at the her majesty's theatre, the usher gave a nice fat cushion.
because i was too short. and there was a stupid pillar on my left.
so i only had half a view. ergh :/
after watching my fair lady and phantom, i know now the esplanade is not cold at all.
jacket is so the extra. and i bought my newbie bag!
so today's a nicenice day.
hmm.. that's about it.

in a good mood :D

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ok. shall practice my summary skills (:
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yay. went out with char, carol and jieshi to celebrate jieshi's bday. and sort of mine too..
so we wanted to go fareast, and went to watch stomp the yard first. nicenice. although the starting is v. messy.. after show, jieshi needed to go le:/ so we found this nice mirror in the corner of the entrance of isetan scotts and took pics. haha, people walking past must think we were crazy!! after that the 3 of us went fareast, we shopped around, ate, talked, posed and were SILLYsilly. thanks, i really enjoyed myself today. thanks mouldy, eeyore, and piglet version2 :))

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3 days of common tests. and speech day rehearsal. i cant play the sch song!! and they changed the nicenice dancing with the wind, dancing in the wind to yiddish. ergh. so that we dont have to practise extra i guess..
i think i did real badly for my tests since i was rushing through to study. didnt even properly read through. and wasnt strong enough to stay up until 4am, unlike someone. sigh sigh.
oh yes, back to band. speech day rehearsal was weird that day. because this 2 clarinettist came and tutored us for like, 30mins? and they were jap and couldnt speak english that well. so it was real weird to see the band room chairless except for our 5 chairs. after then we went to the hall to ask the 2ndclar to come. we were in middle of yiddish... after like, 20mins we went back to bandroom!! ergh. waste time luh. i would like to see you try carrying chairs, clarinet, stand, file, jacket, waterbottle. hmph! although i got some help:)

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im out:( today the conductors came soo early!! 1.10.. when i just bought my nice bowl of soup, gilllian came down and told us to go up. cos they came already. we were like, honestly, extremely annoyed. (in other words, wth) so we quicky assembled. no fall in even. cos they were listening to the day ago's yiddish recorded by our SC. they were in deep discussion kay. so were were as quiet as possible. then she was like: u, u and u u u. go outside. i will test you now. !!!!!! i can remember very clearly that aqila wished me all the best. and i failed. miserably.
we played the high notes, C to G, and then ng and emily couldnt. out to practice. then play yiddish, running notes. emily, then me, sree, then ng and jiahui. out. practice like mad. it was worse for us 3rd clar because we were facing ms sia directly. she was testing flute. cant even sit down for a while or slack at all. while ng and jiahui were outside hall, blocked by staircase! they could pop out for a while and sit. no such luck for me! afterwards, test again, cannot, out. jiahui could, she stayed. myrra cant, out. jerine and elaine, stayed. in the end. she sent those that could to join seniors. tested ng me and sree. i think she gave up hope on emily. we couldnt play!! ng out. then ms sia was so annoyed, so pissed. that she just walked off. at 3pm. we were waiting until band ended! cos we couldnt just leave like that. at around 3.20, i made a stupid mistake to go talk to ng, who was still standing at the staircase. spotted ms sia, rushed back, too late. she stared at me and went back in. i felt terrible!! we were so ashamed to go back and face our seniors.
i know they tried to be friendly-ish. but it must have been disappointing. that only 1 out of 5 juniors made it. and we heard that ms sia scolded huimin. for not being a good SL. that wasnt her fault! huimin even once asked us if, if we(juniors) could not play well, would we think it was the seniors fault. we all said no. yet, this type of thing happened.

im sorry. for letting you all down
you are great seniors. thanks for all the coaching
thanks 3rd clar, you're the best
you always make me smile
im sorry. forgive me
i shall try my best.
try to work hard
clar section, jia you
we can do it
cos we're the best.

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finally i posted everything back up! yippee. now the mouldy person will stop complaining... (:

today was disastrous. a summary:
we took a long time to get on the bus, leaving perc all alone but we didnt reallllllyyyy help.
when we arrived we found out we were the only band wearing band u. everyone else was in sch u. we always wear the wrong thing :/
went into the hall but couldnt find seats because pple were chope-ing the few rows that were left with waterbottles and whatnot.
hello? incase you dont know, we are performing for you! we should deserve the seats more! im saying this because they were just.. parents or visitors or something. ergh.
so we had to go upstairs and wait for band no.1 to finish then we could sit down. it was hot outside the circle 1 kay!! then we sat down and enjoyed ourselves. emily(!) was sitting next to me. ng was on the other side.
me and ng were talking about tons of stuff. the only time when we were really quiet was during tkgs performance :)
we were band no. 10. so once band 8 finished, we went down. then after lining up properly and all.ms sia was nice enough to be encouraging all of us before we go in. although it made me nervous instead.
WE PLAYED HORRENDOUSLY OUT OF BEAT DURING OUR PERFORMANCE.
on our way out, ms sia was... pissed. there's no other word for this.she said things like: we were a letdown, dissapointment; we didnt try hard enough; at most it was a bronze.
that sentence hurt. alot.
last band was 13, so mrs tan said there wasnt point in getting back there. i suppose we missed about 5-6 bands. oh well. at least we heard tkgs. and illegally recorded (:
we got our buns, but blocked up the passageway. this guy came to complain, and needless to say the teachers werent happy.
clar section (ok just 5 of us) sang some songs to cheer ourselves up, but it was kinda loud. and one of the songs was liang zhi lao hu. mrs tan heard it.
on the bus. so quiet. no one felt in the mood for talking i guess. and mrs tan already she was going to lecture us. sigh.
the lecture was very long. but it made sense. she even said that we were dressed up so nicely but were singing childish songs. hello? the liang zhi lao hu wasnt exactly our fault. we were just teaching aqila how to sing a chinese song, because she said if she was late for her CSP her teacher would make her sing a song. and she wanted to be prepared. that was all. and it wasnt loud. as compared to the other louder songs we sang. (those are our own fault, i agree) but that song wasnt!!

tanya, shangyu, aqila, cathlin, ng and i went for section outing. but because tanya didnt bring clothes to change, she decided to go home instead. we went to plaza singapura. to eat pastamania and then shangyu was going for piano lesson..
we practically emptied out 2 bottles of powdered cheese. now i know aqila's such a cheese fanatic. had a great time there.......... we escorted shangyu for her piano lesson, after browsing yamaha. then the 4 of us went to barang barang, and talked about the adjudication & band & stuff. it was quite a bonding time. we didn't want to stay there too long after a BB employee passed cathlin her shoebag. so we went to times.. we wrote this suggestion letter note for the band while reading guiness book of world records:) then shangyu BOO-ed us. afterthat not much, more or less was going home.. oh! us 4 again. took escalator down. in the end its the NEline, only for ng. our seniors was just blinding following, while i truely thought that escalator was for NSline and wondering why ng was so dumb to be following! hey, both colours are there, how would i know? im a EW person!!
haha that's all. sorry for taking so long to finish this up.
the real time is 25 Mar, 8:25 pm :))

oh wow. long post. cool.


`never let go. because its meant to be

Labels: band, syf

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i just upgraded to the new version of blogger yesterday. guess what? all my links are wiped out! i scrolled down only to see : KCP-I . that's all. all cut off or something. so u have to wait a while for me to put them all up again. sorry and thanks!

ok gotta get ready for the fake BIG THING tomorrow. *try* to remember to tell ya all about it (:
** that's the key word :D

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its the start of the march hols break and i feel funnny:

there's a weird amount of hw- hard but not alot;
i have to do PE hw- stupidest thing i heard of;
i have band for 4 times;
im going out on wed, fri & sun;
that = no time for revision;
im bogged down because i have to study for 5 subjects;
which will be testing over a span of only 3 days;
another word is: common test time;
i wasted today just mindlessly using the pc while telling myself im actually doing the pe hw;
im going out tmr so im hopelessly behind schedule;
i could have gone to dhaky's party if i begged hard enough but i didnt;
i try to convince myself that its cause my parents dont allow but secretly i know that isnt true;
i dont want to admit that its cause of my own personal problems;
AND my grades are going down;
im waiting for ms sia to discover that i cant play for syf;
but she's taking a while;
and in the meantime i still have to go for all the hectic practices;
so im sorta wishing i could participate after all;
i hate getting my hopes up when in the deepest bottom of my heart, i know there's just no hope at all;

ok now you get the idea erh? sigh. maybe i should take some drastic measures.
like get a punk haircut or something :D
then i would know why people actually look at me that way. instead of guessing.

`turn your eyes away.

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happy birthday dhaky.

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UPDATED!! those in blue..
yiying: shirt + dark chocolates
amirah: mug
genevieve: + paper holder
tanya: keychain
shangyu: chocolates
i had a great time today. thanks everyone. okay here's my whole list.
my presents:
parents: NIKE watch
sister: wallet
grandma: clothes
ng: DIY calendar and necklace
joan: piglet pen and beanie
joy: pig keychain
jieshi: free tattoes (:
simin & caroline: SOAP!! in a strawberry bottle.
genevieve: postcard + sweet
shangyu: heart-shaped note
cathlin: unexpected handshake
wishes by periya, tanya, dhaky and erm. i forgot.
and here's my OWED list..
stephanie: cross-stitched pouch
charlene: DRUMLINE + something..
syahirah: ...
amirah: ...
jasmine ang: ...
yiying: ...

THANKS EVERYONE! you have given me a sweet fourteen. *curtseys*

oh my. i have posted 3 days in a row. this is a record. haha.

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1hr and 47 mins to go (:

im supposed to blog about the tkgs thing. argh. i dont think its possible now. cant be bothered. basically, it was just really really weird. like we spent half the time arranging the chairs.
anyway. after that shangyu, tanya, aqila, cathlin, emily, ng and i went out. to orchard to eat KFC. ok that's abit far just for kfc.. but ya. we had tons and tons of fun.

yawn. i wanna go to bed le. and enjoy the wonderful day tomorrow :)
alrite promise promise to update.

`legally not a child. (under the child protection act)

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argh. i had wanted to update abt band exchange. but its so late and im dog tired. after dnt and all. the 1. 1/2 hr power nap helped a little. but my energy is totally drained. ok i'll promise to update about tkgs exchange. and maybe about today as well. gd nite.

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